Doctor Sujatha Rao Doctor Sujatha Rao only gives 2 minutes of her time to patients

Doctor Sujatha Rao

Doctor Sujatha Rao only gives 2 minutes of her time to patients
13/8/2012 Monday 9:40am
I’ve just seen Doctor Sujatha Rao, her nonchalant attitude strikes again. She only spent a mere 2 minutes with me before standing up and ushering me out of the door. Such non-existent patient-doctor relationship is exacerbating my dampened hopes in getting somewhere with the help of a doctor. She did not initially cared to ask me is there anything that I would like to tell her or escort me into the dayspace. She simply kicked me out of the room and continued writing her report. There’s no counselling or hints of talking and trying to understand why my behaviour is bad or intrusive. Rather, it’s a I just see you to tell you what I want to tell you and that’s all kind of relationship. That’s all. I really hate my doctor Sujatha Rao and I hope she isn’t my primary doctor in the first place. PS I see the psychologist every week and have a psychotherapy file. But she doesn’t even blink an eye on it,  ie look at the file at all! Talk about wholesome care.
Another is spending only 10 minutes previously with me.
Spending 10 minutes, a mere 10 minutes in the doctor’s room every session has not given me enough time to voice out all my concerns, repeated or not. It’s always less than half an hour and the doctor always kicks me out. Patience, doctor, patience.
15/6/2012 15 June 2012 Friday 4:45pm
I told my doctor – Doctor Sujatha Rao that the nurses recorded nitty-gritty small issues of misbehaviour like if I lend a pen to a new patient, the nurse would write that I lent a pen to a new and unwell patient that could poke her eyes. I lent her a pen to write letters to her mum and dad! No ill intentions! And because of me saying this, she had an argument that this is wrong! It is not nitty-gritty, it is something big - you lending/giving a pen to an unwell patient, what if she really poke her eyes out, who’s gonna be responsible for the pen’s use then. But is it my fault? You must see the intentions. My intention was to lend a pen for her to write letters to her mum and dad! Who knows she’s the super unwell girl or what she will do with the pen??? I did not purposely pass a pen to her to poke her eyes! If I did, then that would definitely be called a misbehaviour. If I simply lend a pen to her to write letters, I am not misbehaving at all. Though there is a factor where my pen can poke her eyes, my thoughts of giving a pen to her wasn’t that! That’s why I said the nurses record down nitty-gritty small issues of ‘misbehaviour’, it can be issues such as this where I never misbehave but it is written down that it seems. Further example would be that when we are doing sewing crafts-work, I asked for more cotton and if I could dismantle a part of the sewn clothe to put in more cotton when I have already sewn up everything, it is written I am disruptive in the OT session by my Occupational Therapist. I don’t understand why is it called disruptive – a bad behaviour. I asked the therapist once if time would allow, allow me to dismantle and remake my soft toy with more cotton, me asking the therapist to redo my work might seem that I didn’t plan well. But I did not disrupt the calss at all by all means! Heavens sake, stop maligning me. That’s why, I don’t wanna base my necessities or ‘privileges’ on my documented “behaviours” in the ward! Because I can behave very well but if small things like these issues happen, it would just leave a black mark on my record and jeopardise my whole necessities. And most importantly, if there is a documented misbehaviour that is FIND OUT is that really a bad behaviour, DID I REALLY DO IT? Or WHY DID I DO IT? Instead of immediately not letting me down to paroles, outings, phonecalls and visitors which you all have been doing so.
And also, in the same consultation, the doctor don’t seem to get that I am in their care, Doctor Sujatha Rao mentioned they are not having or arranging weekly family conferences, they have stopped doing it. Because they have tried everything for my parents to take me home, but to no use. So you not arranging family conferences every week but wait for my parent to come every month means I’ll have to stay in the god-damning hospital for another few weeks? 16/6/2012 5:10pm Saying is easy, but staying in here is a god-damning condemned left alone not easy. She says she had told my parents and previously my uncle (where my parents have given all care to him) not to put me in the hospital when I don’t have an illness. And she says if they can’t handle me, they would send me to hospital, and that is wrong. But the thing that’s bugging me is if I don’t have an onset of mental illness, why have the Emergency doctor admit me? Ms Janine Kok, concerns that the EPIP team wrote on the case notes doesn’t warrant an admission of yet another 5 months if my parents brought me in an ambulance. And if I get admitted and the new team of EPIP doctor sees me, I should be discharged within a few days if they realise me displacing my parent’s window is not an onset of my mental illness. It is not about personality here or how to change people’s personality, it is simply now I am under the hospital’s care, they should make sure they don’t keep me here for long if my illness is cured. Which no arranging for more family conferences, no allowances for friends as visitors for comfort when your family can’t and don’t visit you what the hell is this? Which no arranging me to be able to make frequent connections ie calls to my parents so they can have more chances or I could have more chances of more visits and therefore more contact and more discussions with my parents so I could slowly go home. Hospital, do your job as a hospital, I think you’re doubling up as a prison, personality or not, parents taking me back or not. One simple thing you can do is discharge from the hospital here and now, I am 21 years old, where I’m gonna stay, how am I going back home is not your business. I can just take my belongings, go out to my friend’s house or drop myself out outside my parent’s house and we’ll go from there. Please, hospital, do your job. You caring too much about what happens next after my discharge is none of your business.
I am in your care when I am in your hospital therefore arranging more family conferences. But when I’m outside of your hospital you still care for me, but not limiting where I can go from here. I want to go home, I want to get out of the hospital, this is what I want, I hope you don’t impede me. Just sharing.