Strategy

If I die, it is being smart.
It is not being stupid.
I have to think about my future.
A future locked up forever and life time subjected to that medicine?
That mind destructive medicine?
If I don't kill myself I may kill my son/daughter next time
The medicine on my brain is so strong it's causing suicidal tendencies already
I can't imagine the next half of my life staying in IMH
Dying is best.