It's not that i just dont like IMH. I came to IMH with a neutral mind, but when i was there, I was tied up. Hands, legs and body by the staff of IMH. But that's ok! If u r disturbed, aggressive or violent. But i wasnt. And when i was tied up, i cried, my mucus was all over my face and my hair fell all around my face. I couldnt reach out to wipe away my tears nor sweep away my hair. I called out to the nurses and all of them ignored me.
That's ok. I forgive them.
But in 2010, the same thing happened.
2011 as well.
See, i was keeping quiet all these while! I never wrote a petition nor a complain. Ever.
But 2012, nurses, take photos of me being tied up, and I remembered in 2009, a nurse scotchtapes people's mouth. And made living in IMH a living hell.
And i became suicidal.
Everytime when my parents want to send me to IMH, i have a phobia.
I couldnt have a rest.
I was traumatised.
I even attempted suicide.
I ask u this, as much i love the staff of IMH, i have to get angry at the bullying tactics that they have. Because what is these petitions and writing to the press compared to a
LIFE TAKEN AWAY like me?
The affliction of the people in IMH. When we are stuck in IMH, we cant go to church. The people in IMH or people who has mental illness is because they dont know the full Jesus. Some do not know the gospel at all. God has showed me that the nurses have abused the patients there and the long-stay patients there need the help and a Jesus-girl the most.
Let me ask you, what would Jesus do?
Now I've heard preaching that says that 'beware of the sin of anger. ANGER robbed Moses, the great leader of the promise land.” Now, you must remember that there was another time Moses was angry. Remember he came down the mountain he saw the golden calf and the people dancing around the calf? *sings* Tonight, we are young... You know. And what did Moses do? He was Angry, alright. He took the two tablets and he broke all ten yo! He broke all the ten! He was angry! And God did not rebuke Moses. You know why? Because at that time he was in sync with God. God was also angry. Are you listening. Anger itself is not wrong. The Bible itself in the book of Ephesians, written to Ephesus, it says “Be you angry but do not sin in your anger.” Alright
We need to get angry at sin, we need to get angry at injustice – bullying tactics. People who put down others Amen! I mean Jesus was angry at the Pharisees but notice He wasn't angry at the prostitutes. He wasn't angry at the tax-collectors. He wasn't angry at the social outcasts. If you study the life of Jesus and He's the same yesterday today and forever. He was angry, at the ruler of the synagogue.
It takes wisdom to understand, emphatise and relate to the people of IMH. And understand why i do certain things people.
Im doing these things out of love.
If not for the love of the patients of IMH, would you think i am spending time on these petitions???
We need to get angry at sin, we need to get angry at injustice – bullying tactics. People who put down others Amen!
It's not that i have no love, i have so much hurt in me. In fact, i have too much love. Especially for the patients in IMH. I love anyone as long as they dont use bullying tactics on people. And even if they do, i do forgive!
But that doesnt mean "forget"!
U can forgive but down the years you can still remember. But my hurt is no longer there. And, if someone keeps stealing from your company for example, you forgive that person, and you say "but I forgot he stole!" ???
And i have to contribute to the improvement to IMH. God doesn't say if you are bullied, dont do anything abt it. If u think abt the masses of the people, u cant help but have to do something.
And as much as i love the staff of IMH, remember that they are still NURSES! THEY R WORKING! AS A PROFESSION! If they bully patients in their work. It is wrong and as a proper way, we have to speak up. What we have to do is to feedback to the management, influence, change and let people know about it. I am doing what is right after all.
I pray that u can understand my heart .
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